Category Archives: convoluted situations

Stupid girl

You just got mind fucked again
Wish you could help
who you fall in love with
And fall out just as easy.
Twin flame that burnt
the fuck out of my soul.
Your addiction has cost your family
opportunity
And me.

Living in the heroin highway

I woke to the sounds of the morning The alarm quakes me into day and I hit the ground dancing. 
Engaged in routine grasping bits of chores satisfying my mounting list a lil. If I could just have one more hour or a few more hands.
Finding my place in the world I’m not ever free again and it scares the shit out of me.
Again and again I am separated from my art by this heroin epidemic and I don’t dance with this devil. I change diapers and care for so many kids.
Everyone around you suffers the greatest of consequences while you get high.

Our minds, body and soul needs the truth not the addiction fed lies you try and serve with convincing eyes. 
Do you believe yourself?

There’s an epidemic out there!

There is an epidemic of epic proportions out there. It’s t’s complying with the order of cease and destroy.it is still successful at killing if it doesn’t kill the host it shreds them of their dignity and dreams. Holding their life hostage terrorizing families. 
I wish I had some great holistic advice. But I don’t other than wake up and stop fucking doing highly processed shot that’s killing you. ( I was going to put in the name of the drug but really any processed shit will kill you) 

I am sick of unnecessary death and dying and not being able to do anything to help except pick up the pieces. Today I feel so tired. I just want everyone to do the right thing for themselves, their families and their community.look at the big picture envision the future and choose life

    Sacred Holistic Arts*~balancing and winter works

     Balance… 

    Is finding normalcy in this life even possible? We have all have our preconceived notions of what normal is supposed to be like, but is living it actually what we want? I told my daughter last night that I would love it if she could be happy all the time but that isn’t always possible. Sometimes we have to take life by the moments.  Sometimes you have to just find one thing beautiful and focus on that for awhile and realize that moment is beautiful and eventually they add up.

    Sure I would love a house, a husband/wife I could be faithful too a great job and a group of friends I go out with on one scheduled visit a month. Sadly not my life right now and I would have to give up my summer touring around for one or more of the normal things and I am not ready to grow up that much yet. Stability is not over rated and yet I am not ready to settle for just any house or job that might take me away from my art. The key is balance.

    Striving for amazingness is great but not if it makes you go crazy!  A little each day just do a little something and eventually it will add up! I am amazed as I begin to publicly share my stuff just how much I do make and as you get to know me and my life it’s a lot of chaos but I make things happen pushing through obstacles.

    Patina time this picture right here is of the two arbiters that I made for the mobile’s and now I am oxidizing them so they are that beautiful turquoise color. I have been holding my breath for A few days during this process hoping it doesn’t destroy the work and enhances it nicely!!!!!!! For the know how check out my online course~ a holistic approach to creativity
      

    Here is the piece before I started I added some more stuff to it. My niece came in and says”aunty M why you hang my dream catcher up there silly that’s mine” she is three. so we made it uniquely hers. Music by one of my favourites bands Lucid.

    I made some one of a kind you just bought something amazing so I made you a really cool bag that your gonna want to keep:)

    Nutrition health and healing

    I really have a hard time in the winter. It is def not my fav. season! when it comes to maple season I get so excited! My family started tapping tree’s last year and I am hooked! It is hard work but when it boils and I grab a cup of tea or cocoa with boiling sap water that is our reward!  Sweet rose tea and sap water.

    Bring it on! Here is my weight loss super shake.

    2 scoops of protein powder of your choice

    1 cup of Keifer

    I table spoon of spiralina

    1 tblsp of Hemp powder.
      I could eat a head of cabbage all by my self.

    mix with olive oil and nutritional yeast and roast

     New stuff in the collection for sale

     Here is a pic of the unity scarf I knit… $110 this can wrap around my neck three times

    White Lilly crown shown here by princess Lailah can be found on my etsy . She came to sleep over and wanted to play dress up!!!! Lots of princess dresses later.. I love this girl!

      New head piece unicrystal $45  
    Can find this heady piece on etsy too.
       

    These I haven’t listed so if you have interested pm me   

        
      Homeschool moments in timekids making cookies with sap boiling in the   Background .. Below is our field trip to shelburne falls pot holes
     
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    Colrain woman weaves dreams in pitchforks

    again, I will happily paint a mural and or donate a dream catcher for this calm room at Hill crest school. Let’s be part of the solution not part of the problem!!

    ! There are a lot of really mean people in this world my goodness!!! I am not even going to respond to them personally because it takes to much time and energy and I would rather feed into a positive solution than go to war with here is only a couple: turtle boy who had to resign from his position as a history teacher because he sexually harassed woman at a Patriots game. Turtle boy ( don’t turtles hide from everything?) who posted pics of myself and friends and customers as if he knows us! Taking absolutely everything out of context as if I write everything personal on my Facebook page lol or Cindy who I went to school with who never birthed any children from her own womb and I had to unfriend from my face book for her racist rants and name calling. I am getting terribly hurtful publicity for posting pictures you would not even believe the the harassment!

    This is not about me but the dozens if not hundreds of people who have been effected by this room

     this picture was taken on Monday after the superintendent went on line to say it doesn’t exist. Ok so what you are seeing here in this photo is not real. Nor did they add a few pillows which did not stop this parents child from sustaining multiple concussions. I have heard from kids  aged from 5-7 /12-16/ 20’s. That were put in the calm down room and it has had adverse effects for the long term. Most states this is illegal for a child to be isolated without an adult social adjustment counselor to help them move past these challenging behaviors. This is a community where we trust the professionals to be professional and to know. Yes children can come from all different backgrounds with all kinds of socioeconomical statuses and behavior challenges that need help overcoming their challenges to become successful world citizens? What can we do with this failing school system that has no money? What can we all do to be part of the solution and not part of the problem? Let’s stop deflecting from the issues and make our community a better place to live. What can you do?

    Bipolar planetary preoccupation

     

     

    When the winds have changedpuzzle peices

    and nothing goes as planned
    Bi polar up and ran with any of my sanity her rage brings out the darkest sides of my soul
    Painful moments that go against everything i ever thought i was
    And everything i think i am
    This is beyond someone reacting in a difficult situation
    This is someone who is constantly in a stAte of shock abused
    battered
    triggered
    Trying to make things work

     

    unclassified / 38/ soul love saga

    Photo on 2-21-14 at 11.28 PM

     

    Unclassified

    No labels sprawled arcoss my chest

     

    ancient symbols lay over my heart

    finding sacred in the dirt and decay

    finding peace on others heroin highway

    through the smoke and mirrors

    pain and galore watching the

    nightmares of the ones you love

    while you smell like sweet surrender

    in this apocalyptic nation

    and your friends and family go missing

    There is nothing left to say or do

    there is only so much light

    you can spread on this situation

    only so much love can be givin

     

     

    societies shadows/soul love saga

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    Societies Shadows
    Silver iridescent shadows cast
    Upon sacred sites
    Visions wonder
    Across the midnight skies
    Echoing sounds of nights
    Lively terror
    Anxiety creeps into
    Darkened mentalities
    Emptiness is souls
    Angered spirits
    Crossing each horizon
    As loneliness dwells
    Through my mind
    My hands touch cold hearts
    Stillness touches
    My body
    Happiness stands
    As an illusion
    Society
    Held onto yesterday
    Until tomorrow

     

    for our benefit/ 37/soul love saga

    Add new spasmodic affiliations

    afflicted with past revenue

    past grief

    and wrong doings to my body

    to my body wrong doings were done

    done and disabled are the wrongs

    of human kind done by mankind

    the human body was meant to nourish the divine earth

    saturate her with our blood

    composed with belief

    as we tended fields our most sacred

    moon cycles fell from our wombs

    un-pregnated to the earth we worked

    as drops landed in plants we cared for

    modifying the earth we walked among creatures

    as we were once one

    plasmas and secretions

    fell from our bodies to the hungry earth

    needing replenishing from sustaining us

    now hungry the fields are

    from being over processed

    to many years of not being cared for

    over utilized we have lost touch with

    sustaining

    our purpose of completions

    of mass populating matrix style

    designating chemical warfare

    on our own environments

    cancers rise

    neurological disorders

    plague the earth like never before

    as the quality of the food

    we bring to the table declines

    the master of materials

    master of rules

    master of the public welfare system

    should make compost mandatory

    recycling  obligatory laws

    make community gardens necessary

    food stamps and poor farm work

    that begins our rise out of the oppressive system

    that has held us down and under

    work for our food work for our benefit

    rise above the system to be the system

    that stabilizes and provides our own needs

    in ways that nurture our souls

    providing the child care we need

    legalize the plants that ban the pills

    universal health care not sick care

    capture the rights of the people

    to be safe from gang wars of our generations

    our generations that have fought for fuel

    the only biomass that is sustainable is hemp

    and bio fuel in this counter culture

    mushrooms  that are magic to counter balance the toxins

    from

    fukushima daiichi nuclear disaster

    nuke fuels that are pouring thousands of gallons of toxic waste

    into our oceans are already having detrimental effects on the earths creatures

    un-repeatable problems that will last for thousands of years

    along with the oil spills  that would have been cleaned with tossed grass

    and chem trails that keep flying

    spitting and sputtering controlling our weather through destroying

    our atmosphere

    where are we going?

    such simple creatures causing such harm

    who is to start doing the right thing

    who will go down in history

    governing laws that protect and serve

    us and the earth

    who’s to be accountable?

    where are we really going with all this?

    brevity/ 38/soul love saga

     

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    I hide away on this prolonged winter day

    away in the book mill

    crossed centuries

    I would look for answers

    to the dreams/ fantasies that plague me

    my future has left to hold

    any reason that would normalize

    moments like these

    I don’t know where to start

    from an identified cause that might not be right

    but is the spiritual conquest that may or may not be a guess

    pendulum has swung in your direction

    I have gone against these spiritual conquest before.

    randomized thoughts of a psychic

    What is true in one realm may not be for this

     

    I get lost in these dreams

    falling from grace like

    leather and lace from a song

    hold them for real until the alarm

    springs life flowing into these veins

    and the coffee starts brewing

    and the day begins.

    the new day begins

    and i have already lived a life

    from a union to death dearly departs us

    crossing the dimensions

    I always end up in reality

    a near miss

    I like the way you look

    when you smile at me

    face to face

    and turn as we walk on by

    before another time and distance

    sets us apart into our families

    lingering moments as words drift

    the rushing momentum

    of life sweeps away at our brevity

    and stillness unsettles me

    in all the unspoken

    words