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Where do we go from here

  •   So in this whole mess we have to find a way to make education work for everyone. We need to find effective solutions for these schools that have no money to deal with the rising problems that they are facing.

I can only speak from my expierience and my educationaexperiences for my self and my children. My kids school situation has been incredibly difficult until we got them the help that they needed. I am not saying that we are on a easy road but learning how to advocate for their needs helps tremendously. I wish each kid came with their own guide book but after years I do have more knowledge and understanding of what works and what doesn’t.

In the school of question all three of my kids went there. My boys went to this calm room and my daughter saw it but never had to go. My oldest went there several times 8 years ago and at the time I didn’t question the professional thinking they had more expierience with these unruly behaviors but questioning him now since this has come up he said he was scared and hit and kicked the door. My younger son said he just used his time to sleep and it didn’t bother him. Effective for one not so for the other. The law states that an adult must be in there. Now let’s have say an adjustment counselor in there helping them to resolve issues, give the child more tools to put into their tool box so when problems arise in the future as they inevitably will they can access this knowledge. This can’t be done by sticking a kid in solitary confinement ! Hello! These kids will grow up and be a part of our community! I think we need to treat them likely and and teach them how to be civilized good world citizens.

I read an article that the advocate put out about Holyoke schools and abuse against special needs students! This is our most fragile growing  sector of our communities. Another recent case of abuse was exposed in Northampton school.

I understand how difficult it is to parent and teach kids with developmental issues. There are too many situations happening that need to be overhauled so we can get back to learning. One comment left said well what about these kids that are coming from abusive homes or poor nutrition or or or. They still deserve education and to feel safe.  And because they may come from abusive poor homes does not mean we can let the schools get away with abusive behavior too. Corporal punishment went away for a reason.

What about an overhaul of the system thT is ineffective and not working? Stop teaching to test and teach for the love of learning! Let’s face it the teachers hate it and so don’t the kids! That could be the cause of rising problems in education!  Trying to fit everyone in a box how about filling those boxes withe dirt and planting seeds and watching them grow?

Leverett schools took my youngest son who had gotten way out of control in Newton street schools and had a host of in resolved educational problems and helped. They were amazing! They got him a Nuero psych, a behavior consultation from a psychiatrist and put into place an I e p that helps him to this day! They taught me how to advocate for him what works well for him. He learns best in a small classroom.

Some parents have said that we don’t know how to parent we don’t beAt the kids… The list goes on. With all the rising environmental toxins and poor education that doesn’t fit our kids unlimited  technology doesn’t help we do look to the professionals to do the right thing.  I guess we are all at a loss if we don’t solve these problems as children grow and become independent adults without having the ability to solve problems. They are looking to self medicate to numb pain and creating more problems in our community.

stardust

I am on to sacrifice now lover..
be well
live in the light and love
bask in the glory of realness
engage is the theory of life
bask in the stardust

pillars of the community

standing tall

the strength in the infrastructure

of this society in which we stand

I can’t imagine how far we have come from

the natural laws till today
what we do just to make it through the day

these rules we live by

so far from the beguining of humanity

so far from the

spiritual gangsta of the universe

I am now

the way we live

when we’winter2012-174-e1366722299774ve been through hell

grasping what gifts we have

and expanding from our capabilities

engaging the energies

in meditation

to make the right choices

for all

 

 

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IMG_4788the thin vail lifts from my sub concious

and my mood synches with the full moon

silver reflections fall on the earth

as I am given the momentary vision of this

universal conciousness

if only I can be quit enough to listen

to the words whispered on the wind

and echoing in my ears

that ringing clarifies

i find the sacred in the mundane

i meditate as i cleanse

leaving space for abundance

 

who is of the stars

 

 

 

 
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Is it just words?

do we live by our beliefs?

can we be held to standards?

or is it our own inquiry that holds our limits?

that we provide

a shield against everything that doesn’t

uphold our values…

stigma’s that we created ourselves

Can this define our secrets and what we share?

power that is sacrificed by our search for happieness

our quest for knowledge

and our desire to play the game

Love that takes a toll

and drains our vitality isn’t love

A soul connection should raise our vibration

letting us be free to be who we are

without the defence mechanisms

that difine what we do and who we can become.

the definition is just words it is the actions that matter

Boundaries that should be created by both

keep us safe in each others arms

keep us alive

in each others eyes

I am in love

there is no defining it

as it continues to grow each day

I am just that a woman

who is ruled by venus

who is of the stars

who values

this sacred being

and our connection

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I am a bone collector…

Ravishing souls and the likes of them,

savoring the moments between time…

I explore the earth in all her sacredness.

I explore her in all her settled griminess

or manicured manipulations.

Knowing each tree I pass.

I sing to the plants and watch

them dance in the vibration of my song.

I am a wild woman

dancing naked and strong.

I am a wild woman

caught between ravious love

and divine union.

I am a wild woman

running with the wild animals

catching butterflys

spreading seeds on the wind.

Digging in the earth with my bare hands

planting gardens with dirty knees

sipping on the nectar

from a flower in mid day

tasting natures sugar fresh.

I am a wild woman

filling my psyche with healing energy

raising the vibration of humanity,

raising children I have birthed from my womb,

raising the vibration of the communities children.

it takes a village

Wild womyn

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Lacing my thigh high boots
Protecting me from the storm
Keeping me sexy and warm
I walk long in stride
Hips moving gracefully from side to side
Progressing me in life
Momentum in motion
My primal instincts can’t hide the wild woman in me
I’m a bone collector
I ravish lovers
And set souls free
Loving unconditionally my children
Living in the context of this drug culture teaching right
From wrong
Not from a hypocritical song
Just a pathway from rugged neurons
Over sexualized society scarcely
Blessed I in this babylon where
Community organizes clash with my rave-nous assumptions
Play on my ethics between right And wrong

Coincidental sushi/ soul love saga

 

 

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Sushi seems to be my answer to everything
The buffets know me by face
Smiling at this addiction to rolls and wasabi
As reality sinks in and bills mount higher than my patients
Endless phone calls
And appointments lead me to a monotony of disgusted indigestion
This is your reality not mine
Your box
I’m trying desperately to fit in
But my tendrils grow over
Trying to find the earth
they belong in
while establishing roots and foundations
i planted my flowers that grow outside of this mainstream life unable to cage up their unscrupulous beauty for the likes of living a normal life
Bullet proof Gnostics
gaining attention
Are coincidences just that
And not meant to be
With every fiber of my romantic being i cant loose hope

 

Julia Hill Butterfly and Mark from vt. wilderness School..

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I went to see Julia Hill Butterfly In my hometown in Ma. She was speaking with another man Mark Moresy from the Vermont Wilderness school .

The last time I saw her I was sooo pregnant in Santa Cruz California. She had just touched her feet to the ground and was working on a book signing in the bookstore. She had lived in a redwood tree for 208 days to save the tree Luna and to enlighten the world about the decline of our ancient redwoods.. I waited until she was done reading in this standing room only store. Waited for the masses to talk and hug her… Those moments when you get to touch, talk or hug someone who has had such a profound effect on not only me but so many is priceless.

I had worked at a fundraiser and really got to know what was going on months earlier before I found out I was pregnant. I rolled veggie sushi all night long rocking and rolling in the town hall. She was in the last leg of her journey. I was still skinny and nimble talking to some activists about what it would take to do a tree stand. I had even made a plan to go talk to someone higher up that made decisions until I felt that flutter in my belly and saw a reflection of someone I didn’t recognize.

I knew I was pregnant the moment it happened… I had just gotten to Califoria and staked my tent in the redwoods I had been fighting with Josh except that one night. The Harvest moon was in full glory and the ritual was sacred enough for conception. I spent my pregnancy tucked away in the redwoods, first in a tent, than a shack and then in a trailer until I could fit no more. This is not my story though this is about her…

Last night I went to see her fourteen years later. She was gorgeous her aura shined beyond her words . I got a moment to speak with her before the “talk” Just for a few minuets.. I sat down next to her. I don’t know what I was thinking,,, I was so impressed with how she completely tuned into me and asked my mission.

She asked me what inspired me? Here is this international best selling author  (Saving Luna) asking me these loaded questions. I had already planned on inviting her to participate in the online life classhttps://www.coursesites.com/s/_sacredholisticarts I am teaching. Not that her answer would ever have any effect on how much I admire her! More of a curiosity than anything because she embodies everything that I stand for and everything that I want to teach and learn (and be)… Not only that but she is my hero!!!!!!!

I  handed her my book (Quantum spirituality) and gave her my info hugging and thanking her for all she has done. The gift is just that A gift because she has shared so much with everyone of herself.

I can’t believe the transformation in her!  She was always beautiful but this was beyond. She didn’t have to wear any makeup to hide her face. Saying she had filled out or grown incrediably sexy just sounds wrong and disgraceful. She was taller, wiser and more of a goddess than I remember . She  has completed her metamorphosis into a butterfly inspiring all those around her with her message and buety.

Mark and her spoke of social justice, they told their stories of their lives. What led them into activism what kept them motivated through everything.. The room was full of a 180 people. It is so hard to be around people with such amazing dedication to social justice and not be inspired to do something. I was always into doing the right thing. Sometimes you don’t know until someone sparks that fire within you

Living in Santa Cruz with Momma Sage and Mamma Sativa learning about holistic health and eating vegitarian and organic was a blessing for me. They changed the way I looked at food, it wasn’t just a commodity  and healthy wasn’t just what I was eating. Everything Mamma Sativa ate was organic everything she bought with intention and full of nutrients… Super foods…. I think maybe had I not met Julia when I did I could have easily went back to the life I had lived before half on the edge of insanity and chaos. I didn’t… I had more of a reason to pursue my injustices and more of a reason to apply dedication to the earth. I feel blessed for the people to come into my life when they have their is a time and a purpose for everything.

After the show my kids and I talked to her once more and discovered a new book  “Becoming”  I couldn’t put it down. She is an incrediable artist and poet.  Speaking from the heart and soul and truly connected to the divine. I am so grateful for this time that my family has been able to spend in her presence….

 

 

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gone

Her eyes passed mine

driving down the street

The parables that cross all bounds of reason even time…

I had forgotten till the piercing gradational moments pass by

in his car… My heart stopped

I was on my momentary bliss from talks

workouts and saunas

dances and gestures

The past not even he we shared could know

Those moments last year

when sweet wasn’t innocent a practice to love

without guessing

the outcome wasn’t mine to choose

the outcome and left to rot and decay

she stands there

not knowing

like I on the day that she ran her nails

 up my leg

I jumped at the thought of

anyone coming in between us

and what was perceived at was in past life is again  today

gone

unclassified / 38/ soul love saga

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Unclassified

No labels sprawled arcoss my chest

 

ancient symbols lay over my heart

finding sacred in the dirt and decay

finding peace on others heroin highway

through the smoke and mirrors

pain and galore watching the

nightmares of the ones you love

while you smell like sweet surrender

in this apocalyptic nation

and your friends and family go missing

There is nothing left to say or do

there is only so much light

you can spread on this situation

only so much love can be givin