Help me unravel these songs unsung
dreams without sleep
my heart still aches
I have left so many people in my past
those who I loved and adored
who hurt too much.
thinking time was endless
and there would be enough to reconnect.
the smiles that endure
in my heart
the memories made
are all thats left.
When a soul is swept away
the oblivion that stands so long
it aches to be challangend .
words never spoken
words never heard
maybe they could have saved
a life gone too soon.
The darkness that dwelled so long in those days
like the never ending winter
where we were just recovering
from one accident
drinking ourselves into another.
The group that set us apart
let us stand together
like a never ending party
I grew up and moved out too soon.
One hit is all it takes till death curls up in bed
sucking your last breath
leaving your children lost.
leaving all those that shared this life
without a friend.
I steped away to save myself
to save my children.
I am reminded with each passing obituary
how much we all meant to each other.
now matter how much time passes
the wounds never healed
I wonder, if I had stepped up sooner
would that have changed anything?
The light of potential had shown in our eyes
we hid with careless disguise
now our children are our benifactors.
Life choice that never cease to unravel
our latest mistake
Harder My Being
You don’t understand
I had to take a stand
To everyone I meet.
MY soul is taller
Than your shadow
On a totally eclipse of the night.
My hearts been broken
To pieces of compassion.
This worlds my addiction
Slowly killing me.
I m a lost cause
Set my mind free from what I have seen
I love to hurt
Love has been a terrible thing
It makes you hate
It makes you sing
It makes friend ships sink
Sometimes it brings people to merge lives.
Sometimes it tears lives apart.
Love and liars
I love to hurt
love patients is needed when love is here
Waiting around the corner
Love is a never ending story
Bringing tears to my eyes
Of joy and hate
Tears that still have no color
when you fall out of love
I want to feel free
like the many a nights
that I walked these familiar streets
I’ve ran with the moon the stars and the air
openly surrounding me
with only a small price to pay
Experiencing only the highs of life
with the lowest outcomes
having that freedom
erased my worries
As I escaped reality ,
Constantly changing and adapting
learnin my own true being
owed to myself,
time to regain
energy to continue in this life.
Given a little more love and effort
I cherish these quiet mornings.
Before the kids wake up and everyone is asleep.
Nestled in their blankets warm
on a cold winters day.
I use to resist the urge
but came flying out of my bed
to tell my story.
Maybe I crawled between
the kids sprawled like a litter of kittens
more because I was lonely.
My dreams were lying again.
Waking up with no arms around me.
Without my friend to make me laugh
or share that drink.
I am here.
listening to the The bubbling of the phishtank
and the humm of the coffee pot.
Keeping my vital essence caffine
dripping at 200 degree’s perfect.
I will be ready for an iv in a few (just a tired moms joke)
Today is the day
I let love win
or let it in.
Can I just let it in?
Open the door to my dreams?
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