Category Archives: foster care

There’s an epidemic out there!

There is an epidemic of epic proportions out there. It’s t’s complying with the order of cease and is still successful at killing if it doesn’t kill the host it shreds them of their dignity and dreams. Holding their life hostage terrorizing families. 
I wish I had some great holistic advice. But I don’t other than wake up and stop fucking doing highly processed shot that’s killing you. ( I was going to put in the name of the drug but really any processed shit will kill you) 

I am sick of unnecessary death and dying and not being able to do anything to help except pick up the pieces. Today I feel so tired. I just want everyone to do the right thing for themselves, their families and their community.look at the big picture envision the future and choose life

    water color washes over me/2012/ soul love saga

    I found my mouth salivating

    as the kids

    meddled their fingers in

    water colors

    color washes on thick paper

    my mind reaches into the empty dark

    chasm of possibilities

    when I open my eyes desires melt

    as the to do

    lists mount

    high with expectations

    mountains of laundry

    lay awaiting

    sprawled out in the colorful horizon

    a landscape in need of vacuuming


    kids echoing wants as

    my mouth dries in arid anticipation

    of the mayan end of the world

    fear of stagnation and unchanged environment

    rises above

    with the hope of a new world

    with collective consciousness


    lies/37/soul love saga

    enveloped with the sanctimonious air

    I am feeling others wrath

    their thoughts and choices

    changing my life

    their peon in power reasons

    cause treasons unto my being

    treasons against innocent lives

    with her lies

    being noble is no cause for their tossed


    being good is no reason for their


    doing and being more  than I ever thought

    i could be

    is no reason for their unwavering judgements

    against me

    actions that cease reason

    words that are a crime

    trying to tear apart my family

    is of no value

    for the community

    no value for the relationships

    i tended and fostered

    my nights awake I saved my sleep

    to tend others sheep

    and didn’t receive

    the rewards I deserved

    my babes gone from my arms




    my emptiness remains

    silent in my ears

    only my own children

    and I left to pick up the pieces from

    their foul mouth psychopathic delusions

    lying with every breath

    I wish to escape  her purger

    run to an island and forget this


    Entrenched in/37/soul love saga


    Entrenched in their

    own ego

    living amongst their lies of youth

    they breath freely

    and tight with me

    with my ferocity

    of weathered


    protected by my chasm of love

    a cave of walls

    as they fought and clawed

    their way to freedom

    earned + undeserving

    self serving in play

    reflecting the tantrums

    I needed to run



    and throw myself into a lazy pile

    in front of technology

    instead of my meager hands

    old and withered

    before their time

    working beyond their means

    Remained focused on maintaining safety

    for my children and my sisters

    who had not been protected from violence

    and decaying body

    mind and spirit

    I nourish these beings

    in life tryin to hold my darkness at bay

    filling their voids with my eyes and wrapping my arms around them

    drying their tears with kisses

    connecting their souls to light

    planting seeds

    in hopes that they will

    thrive into the divine

    rise up/37/soul love saga

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    Old Growth Forest
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    The government is shutting down


    down goes the poor

    down goes social security


    fuel assistance

    to keep us warm

    Down goes housing to keep us going

    down goes me

    working full time

    getting paid by the secretary of state

    I can’t afford to live with out supplements

    3 kids + 3 foster kids

    it is my choice to choose life

    yet we are free falling out in the abyss

    my mind is spinning out of control

    national parks losing millions a day

    congress is still getting paid

    war is still a priority

    as millions die without a cause

    without a reason except treason

    and bush era figures

    while disabilities supersede because of

    the environmental toxins thrown at us by


    a failed sick care system

    disguised as health care

    should be universal care

    so the government will have a reason to

    take a stand against corporations

    for damaging the populations

    take a stand against

    toxic waste dumps and chem trails

    that leave our land and air polluted

    killing our soil and saddening our souls

    leaving fracking choices to men  far removed

    from devotional land unbearable for even recreation

    useless and devoid of life

    take a stand against using the public

    for pawns

    cutting down old growth forest

    and starting fires

    clear cutting mountains  and lands

    using up all the resources

    with no implication

    for future generations

    someone will be held accountable

    the fight to be right

    between republicans and dems

    wont matter when all is destroyed

    who spent the money when

    wasteland supersedes united states

    apocalypse is sure to arise

    slowly as fracking greedy ignorance


    unless we can pave the way

    mandatory recycling

    for future generations

    through environmentally friendly reasons

    and decisions

    through composting and rebuilding

    from the ground up

    stoping the war for oil and gas

    creating solutions for long term health care

    raise the prohibition on green economy

    green flowers

    for energy, biomass, materials, and medical

    raise the awareness

    raise the earth up

    we are all interconnected

    to our ancestors and

    future generations

    rise up and take a stand

    for old growth

    and the human rights

    and education


    my ecosystem/37/soul love saga


    lingering moments

    and dense categories

    savoring relish

    for the time being

    sacred and scared

    to move into reality

    because my own ecosystem

    is safe and free from

    anyone else’s genocide

    toxic waste dumps

    massive amounts of wasted energy

    with the masses of viral words

    and false disclosers

    threatening to invade

    your territories and your

    minions or children or students of life


    My guess is it is difficult to come

    to the realization

    that some of us work hard

    at just being the best

    we know how to be


    intensities and elevated vibrations

    could soar with un-mounting pleasure

    with taking responsibility for your own

    gaining rewards instead of wasting

    time filling little ears with false hopes

    and leaving  a trail of despair

    when you feed the lies

    and the little truths

    crumble to the ground


    I have a light that shines

    on my path

    it’s called


    I fuel it with

    love and light it with


    it saturates my walkway

    with will

    and shines on my feet

    and the roots

    growing into giai
    I carefully step over

    keeping the darkness

    from my ecosystem



    morning dance/37/soul love saga



    energy emerges from seemingly nowhere

    as the morning mists separate from the waters

    of the earth

    The falls ions hit the cool air and begin melding

    into their evaporation processes

    The sun begins to brighten the sky

    reflecting warmly off the windows in the ghetto

    quiet stirring of birds and cars

    as the diesel engines render their drivers to work.

    vibrating my feet as

    The coffee begins brewing

    and children are awakened

    into their new routines

    some go easy other kicking and screaming

    I lurch into actions that begin to resemble

    my morning dance

    moving swiftly from coffee to child

    until alas each one is dropped off

    at their establishment

    and once again

    silence falls

    on the house and

    I can breathe


    insidious observations

    puzzle peices

    insidious observations

    counting time where it goes

    where this path will lead

    gradual preoccupation’s

    of teenage dominations

    this will only get worse

    as the world spins

    out of control

    how do you grasp

    something so big?



    as attitude?



    multiple personalities and kids


    heaping preoccupations

    when I just want to kick back

    take a load off of my anni (hilated)

    mind and body

    find my center and move there

    find my personal space

    and live there


    feel every breath/37/soul love saga



    Confidently live

    so others may follow your direction


    breath feeling every breath

    salvation in golden light

    showered from the heavens

    the stars

    the suns


    energy of bliss

    of light

    born of chaos

    living in a momentary reality


    with the passing tide

    transition that forsake us all

    transition that could part

    oceans leaving land

    dryer than deserts



    I live confidently

    I will take my next breath

    no matter where

    their choices leave me

    Raising wild wonders/ 37/soul love saga




    one said it would be this hard

    raising wild wonders

    late nights

    inconsiderate behaviors

    + obstacles

    from everyone

    constantly  focused

    on family

    cat scratching lighting

    mounds of laundry

    big enough

    to loose the kids in

    at least the bigger pile is clean

    trash overflowing + filled

    with a stench so unbearable

    within minuets

    millions of kisses a day

    from dirty hands

    to boogery cheeks + bloody knees

    that have been peed on

    -being blessed with vomit

    and a cuddle when sick

    is still better than a bad day

    at the office