There’s an epidemic out there!

There is an epidemic of epic proportions out there. It’s t’s complying with the order of cease and destroy.it is still successful at killing if it doesn’t kill the host it shreds them of their dignity and dreams. Holding their life hostage terrorizing families. 
I wish I had some great holistic advice. But I don’t other than wake up and stop fucking doing highly processed shot that’s killing you. ( I was going to put in the name of the drug but really any processed shit will kill you) 

I am sick of unnecessary death and dying and not being able to do anything to help except pick up the pieces. Today I feel so tired. I just want everyone to do the right thing for themselves, their families and their community.look at the big picture envision the future and choose life

water color washes over me/2012/ soul love saga

I found my mouth salivating

as the kids

meddled their fingers in

water colors

color washes on thick paper

my mind reaches into the empty dark

chasm of possibilities

when I open my eyes desires melt

as the to do

lists mount

high with expectations

mountains of laundry

lay awaiting

sprawled out in the colorful horizon

a landscape in need of vacuuming

 

kids echoing wants as

my mouth dries in arid anticipation

of the mayan end of the world

fear of stagnation and unchanged environment

rises above

with the hope of a new world

with collective consciousness

 

lies/37/soul love saga

enveloped with the sanctimonious air

I am feeling others wrath

their thoughts and choices

changing my life

their peon in power reasons

cause treasons unto my being

treasons against innocent lives

with her lies

being noble is no cause for their tossed

emotions

being good is no reason for their

motive

doing and being more  than I ever thought

i could be

is no reason for their unwavering judgements

against me

actions that cease reason

words that are a crime

trying to tear apart my family

is of no value

for the community

no value for the relationships

i tended and fostered

my nights awake I saved my sleep

to tend others sheep

and didn’t receive

the rewards I deserved

my babes gone from my arms

gone

gone

gone

my emptiness remains

silent in my ears

only my own children

and I left to pick up the pieces from

their foul mouth psychopathic delusions

lying with every breath

I wish to escape  her purger

run to an island and forget this

 

Entrenched in/37/soul love saga

Entrenched in their

own ego

living amongst their lies of youth

they breath freely

and tight with me

with my ferocity

of weathered

experiences

protected by my chasm of love

a cave of walls

as they fought and clawed

their way to freedom

earned + undeserving

self serving in play

reflecting the tantrums

I needed to run

play

scream

and throw myself into a lazy pile

in front of technology

instead of my meager hands

old and withered

before their time

working beyond their means

Remained focused on maintaining safety

for my children and my sisters

who had not been protected from violence

and decaying body

mind and spirit

I nourish these beings

in life tryin to hold my darkness at bay

filling their voids with my eyes and wrapping my arms around them

drying their tears with kisses

connecting their souls to light

planting seeds

in hopes that they will

thrive into the divine

rise up/37/soul love saga

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The government is shutting down

down

down goes the poor

down goes social security

wic

fuel assistance

to keep us warm

Down goes housing to keep us going

down goes me

working full time

getting paid by the secretary of state

I can’t afford to live with out supplements

3 kids + 3 foster kids

it is my choice to choose life

yet we are free falling out in the abyss

my mind is spinning out of control

national parks losing millions a day

congress is still getting paid

war is still a priority

as millions die without a cause

without a reason except treason

and bush era figures

while disabilities supersede because of

the environmental toxins thrown at us by

corporations

a failed sick care system

disguised as health care

should be universal care

so the government will have a reason to

take a stand against corporations

for damaging the populations

take a stand against

toxic waste dumps and chem trails

that leave our land and air polluted

killing our soil and saddening our souls

leaving fracking choices to men  far removed

from devotional land unbearable for even recreation

useless and devoid of life

take a stand against using the public

for pawns

cutting down old growth forest

and starting fires

clear cutting mountains  and lands

using up all the resources

with no implication

for future generations

someone will be held accountable

the fight to be right

between republicans and dems

wont matter when all is destroyed

who spent the money when

wasteland supersedes united states

apocalypse is sure to arise

slowly as fracking greedy ignorance

continues

unless we can pave the way

mandatory recycling

for future generations

through environmentally friendly reasons

and decisions

through composting and rebuilding

from the ground up

stoping the war for oil and gas

creating solutions for long term health care

raise the prohibition on green economy

green flowers

for energy, biomass, materials, and medical

raise the awareness

raise the earth up

we are all interconnected

to our ancestors and

future generations

rise up and take a stand

for old growth

and the human rights

and education

 

my ecosystem/37/soul love saga

lingering moments

and dense categories

savoring relish

for the time being

sacred and scared

to move into reality

because my own ecosystem

is safe and free from

anyone else’s genocide

toxic waste dumps

massive amounts of wasted energy

with the masses of viral words

and false disclosers

threatening to invade

your territories and your

minions or children or students of life

 

My guess is it is difficult to come

to the realization

that some of us work hard

at just being the best

we know how to be

ouch…

intensities and elevated vibrations

could soar with un-mounting pleasure

with taking responsibility for your own

gaining rewards instead of wasting

time filling little ears with false hopes

and leaving  a trail of despair

when you feed the lies

and the little truths

crumble to the ground

 

I have a light that shines

on my path

it’s called

hope

I fuel it with

love and light it with

endurance

it saturates my walkway

with will

and shines on my feet

and the roots

growing into giai
I carefully step over

keeping the darkness

from my ecosystem

 

 

morning dance/37/soul love saga

 

energy emerges from seemingly nowhere

as the morning mists separate from the waters

of the earth

The falls ions hit the cool air and begin melding

into their evaporation processes

The sun begins to brighten the sky

reflecting warmly off the windows in the ghetto

quiet stirring of birds and cars

as the diesel engines render their drivers to work.

vibrating my feet as

The coffee begins brewing

and children are awakened

into their new routines

some go easy other kicking and screaming

I lurch into actions that begin to resemble

my morning dance

moving swiftly from coffee to child

until alas each one is dropped off

at their establishment

and once again

silence falls

on the house and

I can breathe

 

insidious observations

insidious observations

counting time where it goes

where this path will lead

gradual preoccupation’s

of teenage dominations

this will only get worse

as the world spins

out of control

how do you grasp

something so big?

wide?

expansive?

as attitude?

diversions

techniques

multiple personalities and kids

striding

heaping preoccupations

when I just want to kick back

take a load off of my anni (hilated)

mind and body

find my center and move there

find my personal space

and live there

 

feel every breath/37/soul love saga

 

Confidently live

so others may follow your direction

 

breath feeling every breath

salvation in golden light

showered from the heavens

the stars

the suns

 

energy of bliss

of light

born of chaos

living in a momentary reality

changing

with the passing tide

transition that forsake us all

transition that could part

oceans leaving land

dryer than deserts

 

broken

I live confidently

I will take my next breath

no matter where

their choices leave me

Raising wild wonders/ 37/soul love saga

 

 

one said it would be this hard

raising wild wonders

late nights

inconsiderate behaviors

+ obstacles

from everyone

constantly  focused

on family

cat scratching lighting

mounds of laundry

big enough

to loose the kids in

at least the bigger pile is clean

trash overflowing + filled

with a stench so unbearable

within minuets

millions of kisses a day

from dirty hands

to boogery cheeks + bloody knees

that have been peed on

-being blessed with vomit

and a cuddle when sick

is still better than a bad day

at the office