Your life purpose just becomes taking care of these kids that fight you for a single step of the way. You have to just surrender. I still feel that urgency to do something bigger, do something better like maybe I’m gonna read book that’ll change the world but I haven’t written it yet.
Twisted notions resembling reality
glare at me from the window
Who I am is in direct defiance of who
I am to become
I calibrate my crazy
tuck away all my insanity
and twisted notions of reality
so I can raise these beings into the great beyond
suppressing the wild women in me
So I can ease the monotony of the day
So I can ease the burden of society
I am the master of my realm
The time master of the plans in my house
Loving deeply and compassionately
until all the bells in this kingdom have rung
I treated my freedom
as a living dying entity
that was very much alive.
In the face of making decisions
just for myself,
I could be anywhere
Run in the face
free from guilt.
Solace in the sunlight
I mourn my freedom
as I mourn the loss of a relative
one that has escaped dis_ease
Caroling for verse
dancing to death.
moments of bliss
over a cliff
devotion + co-dependency
of systematical justice
locked into hours,
minuets forced by establishment
bearing witness to all paper trails.
The thought of finding that very person that can help your soul rise to the next elevation of existence can only happen if you yourself are complete. We have to work on ourselves complete our fibers before we can really enjoy an authentic connection. I never know how long it will take but it’s best not to jump right into a relationship. We have to prioritize what has gone wrong in our lives and make it right. For me it’s my kids who are dealing with multiple challenges. I need to focus on how I can best help them without letting it affect me. Without letting their problems make me so mad. Keeping your mind open and searching for the answers is really all we can do. Never quitting and always trying to do the right thing is the top priority. I do have me dreams, my desires. I have almost felt that connection that keeps me elevated. Knowing myself and the universe it is hard to let go. I am a head over heals kind of person that would love to fall in love at first sight. Serving no purpose I know there is a checklist that needs to be completed before I can really let go and dive into a relationship. What is your check list? I know I need to be with someone who is strong enough to make it through obstacles more gracefully and patient than I. Someone who is dedicated to children and their well beings like I. Someone who can dance and play… My list goes on..
Until then I will not let anyone bring down my energetic vibration. Noone to cloud or distract me from my purpose. My life is mine.
Moments are what make the adventures of our lives
thank you for the reminder.
Your words are an echo of a long-lived soul
and the vibrational rumble
natural balance of universal laws
I look forward to reading more.
Seeing and touch
the very fiber of your soul,
washing my face in your tears
I come close as I have ever been
to another human.
With you I am someone else
without you I am complete
my days full and abundant
You take away the chaos
filling my life with your
Whisper sensual moments
like bliss in her last breath
solitary I find my courage
to bless this day
while tomorrow may
hold the reality
Occasionally on winters icy regent mornings
Nothing escapes it’s grasp
cold air seeps into this old house
through every crack
creating a draft.
Through my clothes to the bone
cold withered prospects..
Even the oil bills regent screams
making seamless activity
impossible to venture
Bio heat activated through false hope
blasphemy falls through my lips
with each new bill
tending to multi layered dimensional being
journeying through this laden crossfire
in this winter wonderland
I lay waiting in the dormant woods
waiting for an icy fable in february
melting for springs return