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Where do we go from here

  •   So in this whole mess we have to find a way to make education work for everyone. We need to find effective solutions for these schools that have no money to deal with the rising problems that they are facing.

I can only speak from my expierience and my educationaexperiences for my self and my children. My kids school situation has been incredibly difficult until we got them the help that they needed. I am not saying that we are on a easy road but learning how to advocate for their needs helps tremendously. I wish each kid came with their own guide book but after years I do have more knowledge and understanding of what works and what doesn’t.

In the school of question all three of my kids went there. My boys went to this calm room and my daughter saw it but never had to go. My oldest went there several times 8 years ago and at the time I didn’t question the professional thinking they had more expierience with these unruly behaviors but questioning him now since this has come up he said he was scared and hit and kicked the door. My younger son said he just used his time to sleep and it didn’t bother him. Effective for one not so for the other. The law states that an adult must be in there. Now let’s have say an adjustment counselor in there helping them to resolve issues, give the child more tools to put into their tool box so when problems arise in the future as they inevitably will they can access this knowledge. This can’t be done by sticking a kid in solitary confinement ! Hello! These kids will grow up and be a part of our community! I think we need to treat them likely and and teach them how to be civilized good world citizens.

I read an article that the advocate put out about Holyoke schools and abuse against special needs students! This is our most fragile growing  sector of our communities. Another recent case of abuse was exposed in Northampton school.

I understand how difficult it is to parent and teach kids with developmental issues. There are too many situations happening that need to be overhauled so we can get back to learning. One comment left said well what about these kids that are coming from abusive homes or poor nutrition or or or. They still deserve education and to feel safe.  And because they may come from abusive poor homes does not mean we can let the schools get away with abusive behavior too. Corporal punishment went away for a reason.

What about an overhaul of the system thT is ineffective and not working? Stop teaching to test and teach for the love of learning! Let’s face it the teachers hate it and so don’t the kids! That could be the cause of rising problems in education!  Trying to fit everyone in a box how about filling those boxes withe dirt and planting seeds and watching them grow?

Leverett schools took my youngest son who had gotten way out of control in Newton street schools and had a host of in resolved educational problems and helped. They were amazing! They got him a Nuero psych, a behavior consultation from a psychiatrist and put into place an I e p that helps him to this day! They taught me how to advocate for him what works well for him. He learns best in a small classroom.

Some parents have said that we don’t know how to parent we don’t beAt the kids… The list goes on. With all the rising environmental toxins and poor education that doesn’t fit our kids unlimited  technology doesn’t help we do look to the professionals to do the right thing.  I guess we are all at a loss if we don’t solve these problems as children grow and become independent adults without having the ability to solve problems. They are looking to self medicate to numb pain and creating more problems in our community.

stardust

I am on to sacrifice now lover..
be well
live in the light and love
bask in the glory of realness
engage is the theory of life
bask in the stardust

pillars of the community

standing tall

the strength in the infrastructure

of this society in which we stand

I can’t imagine how far we have come from

the natural laws till today
what we do just to make it through the day

these rules we live by

so far from the beguining of humanity

so far from the

spiritual gangsta of the universe

I am now

the way we live

when we’winter2012-174-e1366722299774ve been through hell

grasping what gifts we have

and expanding from our capabilities

engaging the energies

in meditation

to make the right choices

for all

 

 

Bone collecting wild woman/ soul love saga/39

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I am a bone collector…

Ravishing souls and the likes of them,

savoring the moments between time…

I explore the earth in all her sacredness.

I explore her in all her settled griminess

or manicured manipulations.

Knowing each tree I pass.

I sing to the plants and watch

them dance in the vibration of my song.

I am a wild woman

dancing naked and strong.

I am a wild woman

caught between ravious love

and divine union.

I am a wild woman

running with the wild animals

catching butterflys

spreading seeds on the wind.

Digging in the earth with my bare hands

planting gardens with dirty knees

sipping on the nectar

from a flower in mid day

tasting natures sugar fresh.

I am a wild woman

filling my psyche with healing energy

raising the vibration of humanity,

raising children I have birthed from my womb,

raising the vibration of the communities children.

it takes a village

days past

I said in these days past

as the light flickered on and off

by little fingers

all the words I could ever say

who would listen

not the little ears

nor the bigs

but the radiate energy that surpasses

extraordianry lives

and passes ordinary lives

with the likeness of dolls

one moment that leads to another is like

a marathon

where I am only in a race against time

not anyone else

to my sisters dismay

but the uncanny resemblance

of my fathers dead decaying

corpse..

I don’t know where this will all lead

only I know I can’t quit yet

Pushing the boundaries

of the words

that flow from the ether

I have to step up and breath

I have to live and love

and know that in the end

it is me that must

sleep soundly at night

the foster care system isn’t my boss

nor is their mother

but my own consciousness

on raising the spirits

bright and bueatiful

and caring for my own

in their own way

not one person can understand this

journey

nor can they make it easy

except those who get off on suffering

and release their venom on me

instead of taking responsibility

I still have to devote my time

stratagize my personal life

and sacrifice everything to make it right

and love and hug

these beings tight

I am so strong

because I have to be

because I am a survivor

because I cant be weak

Bipolar planetary preoccupation

 

 

When the winds have changedpuzzle peices

and nothing goes as planned
Bi polar up and ran with any of my sanity her rage brings out the darkest sides of my soul
Painful moments that go against everything i ever thought i was
And everything i think i am
This is beyond someone reacting in a difficult situation
This is someone who is constantly in a stAte of shock abused
battered
triggered
Trying to make things work

 

gone/ Soul love saga/38

fall-and-winter-of-2011-2012-120gone

gone

Her eyes passed mine

driving down the street

The parables that cross all bounds of reason even time…

I had forgotten till the piercing gradational moments pass by

in his car… My heart stopped

I was on my momentary bliss from talks

workouts and saunas

dances and gestures

The past not even he we shared could know

Those moments last year

when sweet wasn’t innocent a practice to love

without guessing

the outcome wasn’t mine to choose

the outcome and left to rot and decay

she stands there

not knowing

like I on the day that she ran her nails

 up my leg

I jumped at the thought of

anyone coming in between us

and what was perceived at was in past life is again  today

gone

Wild womyn/ 38/soul love saga

Twisted notions resembling reality

glare at me from the window

Who I am is in direct defiance of who

I am to become

I calibrate my crazy

tuck away all my insanity

and twisted notions of reality

momentarily

so I can raise these beings into the great beyond

suppressing the wild women in me

So I can ease the monotony of the day

So I can ease the burden of society

I am the master of my realm

The time master of the plans in my house

Loving deeply and compassionately

until all the bells in this kingdom have rung

Wheat’s connection to dis-ease and holistic health’s approach to a cure.

There are so many theories on cancer, radiation and the after shocks from the  protocol of killing cells. I am very interested in holistic approaches to going and staying cancer free.

What does it take to stay alive after a diagnosis? How do you stay cancer free when genetics are working against you? What are the long term effects of radiation? How can we use holistic health practices to our advantage?

175,000 woman are diagnosed with breast cancer a year(22,Weed).

My Mom,  is a survivor of breast cancer;she had a double mastectomy and has been cancer free for 8 years. Two of the five women I know that have been diagnosed with cancer from that time period are still alive. I attribute a lot of this to their lifestyle changes. Ginger didn’t quit smoking and Jake didn’t quit drinking they died both last year.

There are a few things that help along the growth of breast cancer;

Hormones including the one’s your body makes and the ones found in milk, meat, steroids and cortisone.

Organochlorines are found out in pesticides and herbicides, plastics and other chlorine products like water and bleached paper.

Radiation, Electromagnetic fields like the one’s emitted from microwaves and computers monitors.

Alcohol, and extra calories from processed foods and sugar.

Lights at night decrease melatonin which is beneficial in cancer prevention.

Sunscreen and mineral oil block the body’s ability to make vitamin d a great antioxidant that helps to fight cancer.  As we also know it prevents sunburns that can cause cancer… Make sure that you are balancing the screen free time with sunscreen and only use natural stuff without a lot of chemicals or make your own.

Woman who wear bra’s show a 20%increase in breast cancer because they cut off circulation. Wearing anti- perspirint decreses  the bodies ability to rid itself of toxins.

Good news though by changing to a healthy lifestyle it is reversible with the foods we eat like phytoestrogens, semi- vegetarian diet, lots of green veggies, lots of vitamin c, e, d, selenium . Though taking supplements is not as effective as eating real foods that contain these ingredients. Susan Weed has a few books on herbal remedies to help along your health. She makes herbalism easy to understand. She makes breast cancer a beatable case.

What it comes down to is attitude and the ability to beat it…Regular exercise improves the body’s function of immune system and reduces stress. Taking the time for self care is important too. The typical women who has cancer is one who tries hard to please others.(22-25weed)

Darell Shchmitt, 56, is a survivor of pancreatic cancer which has little to no success rate in overcoming. What is really interesting in this case is his diagnosis after surviving.  The Doctor’s found the cancer through biopsy’s that they took in the head of his pancreases. A biopsy is in essence very invasive way of finding cancer by cutting into the body and taking tissue samples from the place that has abnormal cells. Within two weeks of his Diagnosis he was on the operating table, three weeks after his terrible stomach pain that caused him to go to the doctors in the first place. ‘Aug. 28, 2007. Doctors removed the head and neck of Schmidty’s pancreas, half of his stomach, his gall bladder, bile duct, some lymph nodes and one-and-a-half feet of his small intestine.’ After the surgery he started loosing weight rapidly going from 206 to 155 in just a few weeks, he was very weak and grey. Soon he was diagnosed with Celiac’s disease and osteoporosis. Now he is taking 26 pills a day he has changed his diet and is living a good life.(Gardner) The only question that I have is if his celiac diagnosis came earlier than would it have saved him from having to endure cancers at all?

My son, Ocean was having really bad eczema all over his body but especially bad in the diaper area. He was just five years old. After I read the Atkins diet and discovered that wheat allergies come out differently and that most people are not able to process gluten in varies forms. After a long story his wheat allergy was diagnosed but not before other symptoms had taken over his body.  He had an anaphylactic reaction; he contracted staph and kept getting it during that first summer. He almost died. He couldn’t pick his head up off the chair, his stomach was bleeding. I got rid of the medicines and did a pure holistic approach to his issues. I got his diet under control, turns out wheat is in everything. As the toxicity was cleaned out of his system his skin cleared up and his energy returned. He was having topical symptoms of toxicity in his system and I was able to change this and solve his issue’s had I not than would he have also developed cancer or celiacs?

I had never would have  linked wheat allergy and eczema together. Ocean would have continued to show symptoms that would have been diagnosed as topical things like eczema. . Now I search for cures I find all kinds of links to wheat allergy’s and cancers, auto immune disorders, ‘osteoporosis, epilepsy, learning disorders, infertility, miscarriages, liver disease and a wide variety of problems.’( Miller)

Gluten allergy’s mean that you are not processing your food properly. The digestion doesn’t work when you have gluten sensitivities; the body becomes nutritionally deficient causing auto immune deficiency. Not all who have one thing will have another, everything depends on environmental conditions.

The tissue damage from the inability to digest wheat gluten proteins causes so many varieties of problems that won’t ever be considered by most physicians as a issue. Every body has  cancer cells that could mutate; a healthy body takes care of these. If your body is compromised through stress or improper digestion these cells could turn cancerous, you could get sick from the common cold or other auto immune problems could take over.

“Gluten contains opioid mimicking peptides called exorphins that have been found to cause such a state. These peptides can increase the risk of cancer by preventing the immune system’s natural killer cells from detecting and destroying cancerous cells. Exorphins can also facilitate the progression of cancer by increasing insulin production which has the effect of feeding cancer cells and assisting their growth.’(Miller)

So just taking gluten out of your diet could significantly alter your body’s ability to fight anything. Gluten has peptides that resemble human tissue’s making the body react through antibodies to attack different organs of the body.(Miller)

Keeping your immune system operating at ‘maximum efficiency’ (Micheaud and Feinstein)is essential to avoid cancer.

Avoiding all carcinogens in the environment is important to keeping cancer at bay when you are genetically disposed to having an uprising in your body.

Other ways to keep your immune system a boost according to preventions fighting disease is by getting some exercise, laughing, sleeping and staying away from smoking and sunlight.

Taking vitamins a, b, c, d, and zinc need to become part of everyday living.. The trick is that even chemo won’t work after doing it once, you have to keep trying different things. There are all kinds of alternatives that can be used in combination with biomedicine or alone.

By reducing all health issue’s to just two culprit’s, we can simplify treatments. There are living things like parasites and toxins that hamper our body’s ability to fight deterioration. Dr. Clark has many case studies that cure all dis-ease. She has discovered a way to build an electronic pulse that zaps parasites within minuets or through a series of cleanses she has found a way to kill them within weeks.  She claims that cancer is a parasite called fluke dis-ease. If you kill the parasite than you kill the cancer.(331,Clark)

fasciopsis buskii is a flat worm in the intestines, usually living a quiet life, the eggs should pass with the bowls. Evolution states that the human carrier will allow fluke to live longer as long as the human stays alive.

What happens if the flukes egg’s are not able to pass through the intestines and hatch? Than it starts to travel around the body, laying egg’s in the breast and then the breast’s inability to kill the fluke leads to the imbalance of cancer cells. As long as the there is a abnormal solvent like isopropyl alcohol in our everyday products; ‘Bottled water, decaffeinated caffeine, white sugar, carbonated beverages, fruit juices, hair stuff, skin stuff, sprays and hand sanitizers,’(335, Clark) the fluke will thrive.

Clark also goes on to state that carcinogens once thought to cause cancer are actually agents in showing cancer where to develop. Cigarettes will cause the lungs to weaken and cancer to develop there. Nickel will lead the flukes to the pancreases.

Top carcinogens would include; ‘Freon, Copper, fiberglass or asbestos, mercury as in tooth fillings, lead, formaldehyde and nickel.’(337, Clark)

There is a mold that grows on food that also decreases the bodies ability to detoxify alcohol in our body, so she suggest that we use powdered vitamins c on all of our foods to boost that ability. Then follow her parasite cleanse.

I had my own  personal case study with the parasite cleanse. Due to my acl injury, actually there was a bunch of injury in my knee when I broke that ligament. Much of the muscles pulled and sprained around the knee. What dr. Clark explains is that through injury and over usage of a area toxins and fluke accumulation will build up around that area in the form of kidney stones, heal spurs, muscle knots, lumps. I ended up with a very painful heal spur that lasted until a few days after I started this cleanse. Three ingredients; clove, wormwood and black walnut.  Check on her website for the full listing of cleanses, ingredients and schedule.

What ever you do keep researching and never give up. Lead as much of a wholesome life as you can and eat very minimal processed foods and sugar… You can and will overcome.

feed my soul / 34/soul love saga

 

relaxations

 

Feed my soul.
Nourish my mind

teach me to love

let go and trust…

Being kind
To find your life’s mission
Inside outside

ears buzzing

Angels calling time
Feed my soul

nourish my mind

empower my being